The well...

Be my sanity in a world that is insane... I speak directly against spirits of apathy and deception that are seeking to destroy my life and i hold fast and steady to your word, your life, your love, and your spirit... I have caught fire! If there is anything that separates me from you, cut it off - for am now connected to the true vine - my only desire is to stay attached to you and bear good fruit... prune me...
You are all i need, yet i want more - from you... you have me... you have brought me joy and laughter... I know things will never be the same... just as the disciples were with you for a time, you had to leave them - and from then on, things would never be the same... in this same way, i have experienced you, and things will never be as they were... I want more of your presence, do not hold back what you have for me...
I'm reaching for you, i'm searching for you, i'm reaching for you my Lord...
First thing on my mind - earnestly, diligently - search
You will satisfy me...
I'm hungry, I'm starving, I'm thirsty...
I want more - send me more - give me more -my creator, our creator...
A manifestation of the Holy Spirit is on me - i feel it - it puts me to the ground - it forces laughter out from my belly, from my heart... it's like being drunk... you are my pleasure...
I would rather die than turn around now... You Lord have broken me free - free from my past, free from people, free from trying to please... I am no longer bound to the things that once held me down... I am tying myself only to things of Heaven...
There is an escort to the water, my soul thirsts...
Thirst is my ally, only if it directs me to you... Blessed(fortunate) am i to hunger... for hunger leads to hope... hope in Jesus...
The hunger and thirst is his promise to us - it may hurt, but he is calling us to hunger so that we may reach for more - The ache and the pain is promise for more...
- boldness - thirst - hunger - fire - more - manifest - enlighten -
He will come to those who hunger and thirst... he does not leave us dry... it is a promise... press into the deep of him...
"Whoever drinks of the water that i will give him will never be thirsty again." John 4:14a
If we will die with you, then we will also live - if we endure then we will also reign.
Better than wine - i have tasted
Better than life, his love - come and taste...
He says to us, "you are my beloved and you are mine. you are my little children. i desire to take care of you, but you must first let me. you are beautiful to me. i created you this way." let us run together, and hold hands and laugh and be free! Turn your face to him and he will rain down his love on us. you have never felt anything like it before. he is good and his only desire is good for us. we are LOVED!
I know what i want, and i know it's you - show me your face, come speak to me...
"It was for my pleasure you were created and exist" - our father

Something is happening among the young people right now - in our generation... God is unleashing the Holy Spirit... He is producing signs and wonders among us... the Holy Spirit is manifesting himself... and if i can be graced to be a part of this, then so can you... The devil is intimidated and is also unleashing darkness, and powers of this world... be watchful...
Come drink!

eyes

Why do i still keep doing the things i hate?... Why haven't i giveneverything over to the Lord?... Why is it so hard for me to let go?...
I keep living the life worthy of being called a hypocrite, and i guess that's what i deserve. I keep thinking about breaking the rules that i have promised i would keep. It makes me sick inside. My soul is so thirsty. I'm parched. I'm not filled and it is my desire to have this. I'm hungry and i'm not feeding myself enough. Well, i'm feeding myself, but with junk food. I'm not giving my body protein, or what is necessary for me to live. I'm breathing in the wrong air. I need oxygen from the one who gives it. I'm gasping. I can't keep living like this. I'm stuck on this path. He's holding my hand, waiting for me to take the giant leap, and i know he won't let go. But i have one hand in his palm, and the other is in the pot of things holding me down. Why can't i just give up and give in? Have the faith of a child? I have experienced his grace, but i'm not living like i have. He has forgiven for so much wrongdoing. I don't deserve someone like this. A lover who won't stop loving me. He watches my every move. He's on my side, but why don't i act like it? I don't feel worthy to be called his child, but i most definitely am. We are made perfect in his sight.
I want these eyes.

Mary the prostitute

I am mary magdalene, the prostitute whom Jesus has saved... He tells me i am not condemned, but loved and loved and loved some more... He tells me in Him all things are made new... i will follow...
Complete submission... only then can we be guided by him and hear his voice... complete submission

^^Healer^^*

Psalm 56:13 - "For You have delivered me from death, and my feet from stumbling, that i may walk before God in the LIGHT of LIFE."
My Faith will heal me.
My Faith in Jesus.
He is my healer...the ONLY healer.

I am coming out of bondage. I have been in a sick, hurtful ( to myself and others alike ) cycle for the past three years, and even further back. Being a slave to the world, and a whore. I have used the name of Jesus only when i want to. The God i must cling to to be healed, i have used, for my glory, not His.
It does take patience, and perseverance, and a lot of waiting, especially when i am the one who has been talking, rather than just listening to HIM. All I can do now is listen. I haven't been faithful. I've been tested enough. I've failed enough. It's a decision. Let go of my past, and look at today, hoping for tomorrow, or cling to what has held me down. I am letting go. No more pleasing people and changing my beliefs from this to that just to make them happy. I must be firm and focused, simply on one thing - The Love and Grace of Jesus, and following Him, and Him only.
One day at a time - Make the next right choice........

simplE

We've evolved as Christians, into a people that use methods and steps, rather than just a simple attitude of OBEDIENCE. The basic, simple principles of Jesus. It is important to always be in an attitude of humble repentance when we come to the throne, and all day long for that matter... we are all sinners. Everyday. when one day goes by without remembering what we have done, why do we need to ask Jesus for forgiveness? Our sin is great, which means our savior is also great... always be aware of Him in our lives, constantly in repentance.

...Come...

I want to see Heaven opened...
The Glorious Mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations is no longer a secret to me...
I want to see great things, reveal the glory...
"What do you want?"
"...You."
"Then, come. Follow me."
"I have always been with you. Never left. Never forsaken.
Will you be with me?"

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I'm in Tulsa... sitting in shades of brown coffee shop, free wi-fi, amazing coffee... peace... i'm supposed to be looking for a job, which soon, very soon, i have every intention of doing, because i need to pay for rent, and food, and any other expenses that may decide to join the band-wagon... i am on my own now... cut off, financially from my family... cut off relationship-wise to my christian family back in DC... i was treated wrongly... When they taught of loving, no matter what, they kick me out of a house that i was part of for over a year, because they felt the decision i hade made to move to tulsa was wrong... i immediately felt like an outcast... like i had cut all ties, which deep down, i sometimes wanted to do all along... I'm listening to Bob Marley, "Don't Worry"... I feel the past three years, sometimes, to be a failure in almost every way imaginable... i got released from Oral Roberts University, before i could even finish my freshman year... which in some senses was almost a "season of awakening" to me... i was exposed to, probably more than i wanted to be, but it happened... i then left for Washington DC, as suggested by parents and other "older-wisers". the first time there was a failure... i broke one of the "house rules" by getting drunk one night with a few of my "brothers"... i was "bused" back to Oklahoma with 40 dollars and told that they wish me well... i emmediately fell into a different life... i was kicked out of my house and forced to live with friends... this was definitely different... life on the go... late nights... sleeping... spending time together... working occasionally... experimenting... some of it good, some of it bad... i lived with my girlfriend for a short period... it ended bad... i moved back in with my family... yet, once again, couldn't get away from this life i had experimented with... once again, sent to Washington DC, i think, in hopes that i would once again be directed to a differtnt life... it definitely changed my outlook on life... i literally met Jesus... i actually met him, in a way i can't describe, nor do i feel i need to... it was real though... i would now begin to see things in his eyes, through his eyes... treat people differently... i strived, and still do strive to live like this... i moved from DC to colorado last october, to meet back up with my family... they had recently moved from tulsa to Denver... i was there for a short time, once again, exposing myself to a few things i hadn't seen before, but will fail to mention here... i then decided to "walk" with a brother from DC for a while... i however, broke the commitment after less than a month because we simply saw things differently, for a time... i left DC this past monday, and am now here in tulsa...